My life: The turn

Assalamualaikum. Its been forever I've left this site. No longer tangled in the academic thingy, here I am doing what I love most, writing :) I hope everybody still in good shape though. Third year in veterinary medicine has drive me crazy like hell. Pheww. I've been in so many situation where I just want to end life. Does life good? Yeah cause I am able to breathe in all moments I guess. Even it was at the worst. So I've deciced to talk about my life here. You are so loyal whispering heart, don't you realize that? You're the one who never change and stick around me for the past 5 years. Who care if you're just a site? I don't.

Hmm my life has been full of struggles. There have been a lot of good times in my life. I have made decisions I have regret and choices I have not regretted. In life we need to set goals, have good friends, and yes love your family. My name is Nur Aishah. I am 22 years old. I was born April, 15, 2014 in Johor Bahru. So poyo writing like kindergarden kid. Haha Yes my favourite part is to told you that I have a person. She is the only reason I kept fighting even at my worst and she is my beautiful mother. She is a good parents even know we get in fights.And I love her so much but I just didn't tell her much. Three sisters and one big brother. I am just glad.

I have a lot of goals that influences my future. If I accomplish them that better chance I will do the stuff that I want in my future. A goal of mine is to keep up with my friends after school. Even know it is unlikely because of the different things that people do, keeping in touch with friends is important. Having good friends is important to me because it is nice having good friends that you can rely on in good times and in bad times.

Why I feel so weird typing thing huh? Haha maybe sebab lama sangat tak menulis. Burpp whatever it is please don't fall sick. Dengue is not an interesting thing to face esp. Why? I've just recovered baby. I hate you Aedes spp. Hm as my life goes on, things get more complicated. I am no longer a child, but an adult who faces reality. Real life is nothing like fairy tales. Problems are not being easily solved and confusions are everywhere. There is never a long period of rest and peace. Sometimes, I think I should always be aware of everything preventing me to live an easy life. 

Moments of sadness and misery are much more frequent than those of happiness, filling my head with indescribable madness. Life is not only black and white, but is different shades of grey. No one is really right or wrong. Every person I trust may suddenly be gone. Now I always wonder if every choice I make in life is a bet, what that I can only do is to trust my instincts and prepare for the worst.

Despite the dark side, life can be full of excitement and surprises. As long as it is interesting and fulfilling, this world is no longer cruel and cold. Peace and just chill dear self. I think that's all for now. Take care you, my important person. And I miss someone so much. I think you know who you are :) Regards. Assalamualaikum.