whispering heart

I feel sorry for you, I truly do .

Your life is consumed with hatred ,

and you don’t know what to do.

I can picture you laughing to yourself,

thinking you got the upper hand .

when in reality, you don’t even understand .

I made my choice , 

because of your so called loyalty to me .

than you go around telling others ,

about your side not letting them see .

‘Is that really fair’? I ask myself .

Then I realize that I am talking about you.

So in your mind, you believe it is my punishment .

well that is a sad case on your part ,

because days are getting few .

I can see so clearly how you cried , lied .

making me believe that ,

I would never lose them no matter what happens with us .

I know that I have tried ,

and it just goes to show me not to trust .

We once had a good relationship ,

but we both changed .

I never looked at it differently until recently ,

because you have become so deranged .

Never thought I would say those words to you ,

but you made me so confused .

I was once so true to you , so true !

and the loyalty I had was strong , 

although being misused .

I carry the traits of a strong human being , 

having that love, loyalty , respect ,

but Only to those who earn it .

respect is something you give ,

to someone who gives it back to you ,

and loyalty is a trait ,

that one should have for their immediate .

So although you you have the upper hand ,

you truly Need to understand .

that no matter how much you think I am this bad person .

you don’t know anything about me ,

and that it is your choice to keep your distance .

but the reasons why ?

Questions that I know will never get answered ,

because you’re notorious for running to hide .

All of my past , is exactly what it is , my past .

But all I ever wanted was loyalty and compassion ,

something that would last .

I guess I was just asking for too much from you .

you could never be there for me .

that’s why I had to do what I had to do ,

so that I could move on and be me .